Mom,It has been quite a while, isn't it? Honestly, I stopped counting the days because nothing feels the same anymore. I am leaving and I am going to travel, to see what lies beyond our horizon, and to find where my magic and my will truly belong in this changing world. I’m leaving our home, or what’s left of it. It may seem impossible but there is small hope that flickers in me that I might find a way to save you just as you did for me or if the world is as cruel as it feels as I write this, I have to find the strength to face what you’ve become. But, before I go I need to say certain things that I wasn't able to tell you due to how angry I was.I forgive you.I understand now that hiding who my father was and your decisions that you chose to deal with Erszebet was to protect me. That being said, I am so sorry for the times I let my temper get the better of me.I do not hate you.I need you to hear those words. I was incredibly blinded by my anger that I ended up treating your protection like a chain, never realising it was actually an anchor keeping me from drifting away. I never once hated you for becoming a vampire. How could I? You didn't choose to become one. You chose it because you loved me. The guilt sits and drowns me still and there were nights I often question myself as to why was my life worth your damnation? Maybe or maybe not I'll ever get to hear nor know the answer.Perhaps, I am no longer a child anymore. You made sure that I will grow to be someone strong but growth doesn't mean staying in a place of familiarity that no longer feels safe. Although, I would gladly give up every ounce of my power just to have another one afternoon where you'll only have to scold me because I kept teasing Richter. Don't worry about me too much. I know it's ridiculous for me to ask such thing. I am certain that I'll be safe no matter where the winds takes my feet. I can ensure you that I will take your love, care and everything you taught me wherever I go.I miss you so much, Mommy. I will continue to do so every single day.I'm not certain when we'll ever get to see each other again. However, farewell for now.Always your daughter
through life, death and eternity,
Maria